On My Knees in Fascination
The wakeup call.
Until it makes its dramatic entrance, our days, months, and even years rhythmically chug along on auto-pilot, each one closely resembling the one before.
And then we get the news.
Time has run out for someone in our circle, something we put our heart and soul into has come to an end, or we’re faced with our own mortality. Suddenly the world around us looks radically different. It’s in these moments we become acutely aware of the small and miraculous around us. Gratitude floods every cell of our bodies for who and what we’ve been given in our lives. Resolutions and new intentions are enthusiastically vowed for the changes we want to make to our story. And then, like clockwork…time passes, the urgency subsides, and auto-pilot sneakily wiggles its way back in to the driver’s seat.
What if we didn’t need the wakeup call? What if noticing the small and the miraculous, the feelings of profound gratitude, and the passionate setting of new intentions was more of our normal way of being? They're the questions I asked myself eighteen months ago after the passing of my business partner. I did some hard, honest thinking about how I was spending the most precious gift I’ve been given – time.
The questions prompted one thing I knew for absolute certainty - what I do with this gift of time, however much I have, is not only my privilege, but my accountability to make the most of. Being accountable to me means that I make a conscious decision to remain wide awake in terms of how I write my story. I want to slide into home base feeling certain that I played my best game, and that I had a LOT of fun doing it.
In my quest to create this new normal it was important to me to define where my motivation was coming from. I wanted it to come from a place of enthusiastic, conscious choosing, rather than feeling chased by the grains of sand running through the hourglass. The result has exceeded my expectations.
“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle,
the other is as though everything is a miracle.” – Albert Einstein
This way of looking at the world has heightened my curiosity. I’m a better listener, which means I’ve met some amazing people in the last eighteen months who have taught me new things about them, myself and the world. I’m far more prepared to be amazed; by people, by moments, and by concepts and ideas that have brought me to my knees in fascination. A true excitement for and about life.
Seeing everything as a miracle may or may not be realistic to expect every single day… but how about most days?
I vote YES!
* Illustration by Lauri Gwilt